On Being a Terrible Parent

I was hanging out with a few friends the other night and we were talking about what it feels like to be a parent. They both have 2 kids and I have 1. We were talking about the moments where you really feel the weight of being 100% responsible for someone’s well being. We talked about how we really feel like terrible parents most of the time, but we really don’t know what to do about it.

I’ve often wondered what my son would say if he could articulate what it’s like to be a 2 year old. I think we probably would both feel the same way. I don’t know how to be a good dad and he doesn’t know how to be a well behaved 2 year old. We both just go with our instincts. Most of the time, it’s probably the wrong decision. If he doesn’t get what he wants, he gets mad. If he is misbehaving, I am frustrated and not as patient as I should be.

I think at the end of the day, he’d just be happy as long as I tried. If I tried to be patient. If I tried to be understanding. If I just tried to be a good dad. I am happy as long as I think he’s trying, so I think he’d feel the same way. I just need to try.